Unhinging the verse

The man in the far right corner is my father; The girl on his left is my mother. It was taken in turkey years ago..

I'm friends with many people; This is something I'm very thankful for. And I do have some very close singular friends that I'd trust my life too. But what I feel is lacking in my life is a close group of companions to go on adventurers with. I use to have that at some point; But I feel as if my last group of friends from high school are slowly drifting away from me into a different direction.

I think we have all changed and grown as people and this has left a void where once camaraderie existed. I feel this void of interests occur more and more frequently leaving me bored and despondent when spending time with them.

At certain times I extend my arm in friendship to connect with another group or new social network and usually I'm left disappointed. This may be due in part to my occasional social awkwardness or sometimes I'm left wondering if perhaps just maybe I'm not as fun or interesting as I use to be.

I want that old feeling of camaraderie back again.

Yesterday I went to a thrift store and bought a guitar and an old camera; Later in the day I bought a yoga mat also. I have little or no idea of the operation of three said devices. I am optimistic that I will master each device in time. I looked quite interesting carrying all three items and my messenger bag full of work materials on my scooter. I lit a smoke on the ride home; A warning to oncoming traffic that Alex is one dangerous dude.

Statements of the day

1. Avarst yar' bilge rats!
2. You are the cat's pajamas.
3. Ron Paul is the sex.

After getting off work near midnight I dropped my scooter off at my parents house. I took my jeep and went driving to gain some practice for my test on Tuesday morning. Am I menace on the road? That's a definite maybe. I haven't drove in several months and don't feel as confident as I once did. Will things work out in my favor? Perhaps.. Perhaps I'll end up driving my scooter throughout the winter. I've got the nervous feeling in my stomache right now; Uneasy and know that I shouldn't have waited till the last day before my test to do some practice driving.

I'm nervous and excited at the same time? I wonder if they make winter ties for my scooter?

Dallon and I finally made a commitment yesterday. We have both always wanted to become filmmakers; So we decided to both save up and split the cost of a Mini DV Camera. They range in price but the two models we are looking at are the Cannon XL1 or Sony VX-1000. Hopefully if things pan out correctly (non pun intended) we're aiming have it shortly after Christmas.

I feel like a zombie sometimes. The last week I've barely had a life; My job makes me uncomfortably numb.
I'm turning slowly into a recluse just like I use to be. All I've been eating lately is canned soups and toast with peanut butter.


I hate my job
I hate my job
I hate my ...


I want to be creative; not repetitive.

Saturday will be my first day off in awhile, I want to make it count.

Please...

All the children were brutally murdered accidentally by the tin woodsman.